am i important?
suddenly, i feel that life is so boring. school school school, everyday school. damn sians lah. argh- school was as usual. its bored, really bored. had a maths paper2 mock exam today. quite alright. but got a few questions dont know how to do. hahas. i think i'm prepared for death. works are all piling up. but i'm still slacking! sigh- buck up please meizhen. nlevel is coming in 1month's time! arhhhhhhhh~
mayb i'm the one who changed.
i still love you boy.
Walk away, Loved. 9:09:00 PM `
rain rain go away.
arhhhhhhhh~ its 6plus now. and its raining! i so dont wanna go to school. so tired lah. argh-
Walk away, Loved. 6:17:00 AM `
the loneliness.
i'm bored can. whole day at home rot. ):
Walk away, Loved. 10:16:00 PM `
PLCC concert.
my eyes is damn painful. i got the feeling that its gonna be swollen again. screams! i hate it can. i will look extremely odd and ugly with swollen eyes. argh- i woke up around 11am. i'm still tired. i dont know why. mayb because of my eyes bah. went to meet up with hweehan, xumin, leonora and nanny at heartland around 1pm. but leonora left after awhile. then the four of us went KFC to have our lunch. after eating, we went to take neo-prints. LOLS. hahas. after that, around 230pm, me hweehan and nanny walk to PLCC. meet up with erin. she look pretty today lah. but kinda pissed off by her today. oh well, its alright. after that, me and hweehan went to watch the concert, nanny went home and erin went tampines mall.
after the concert, its already around 4plus. meet up with nanny again around 530pm. then pei hweehan wait for bus, me and nanny went to take MRT to city hall, meet up with janice and pauline. we walk to suntec. we spent like around 4hours there? LOLS. i saw phelan together with mr phua! odd? i also dont know. are they related? both surnames are phua! -.- LOLS. okae, today me and nanny acted as stead, just for one day. hahas. cause janice is with pauline and nanny feel odd. so she ask me to be her stead for one day. oh yah, and she bought a pink rose for me today. LOLS. arent she cute/sweet? hahas. and we shared ice-cream, and she treat me dinner. LOLS. the best nanny you could ever find! XD
after that, around 11pm, jiu go take MRT home lerh. they all pei me till paya lebar MRT station first before they headed home. hahas. i'm happy today, so happy. hahas. and yesh, he's there during the concert. (:
i love everything around me,
i just hope things will turn out better.
Walk away, Loved. 12:33:00 AM `
what more can i do?
i feel like dying. i wish i was dead. sigh- just what happening to me again. mood-swings again? why? he's already there for me. but why am i still so unsatisfied? why am i still wanting to ask for more? stop being selfish meizhen. you love him, as long as he's happy, you will be happy too right. everything is so gonna be alright yeah? just hope he wont leave again. i need his motivation. i dont have the mood to study at all. i'm just slacking away. issit really true that when you gain something, you will lose another thing? i really wonder. ohwell, today after school was doing geography all the way. its just sucks totally. and the test. dont think will pass lah. just writing rubbish all the way.
is something bad going to happen?
Walk away, Loved. 9:48:00 PM `
our supposed 17th month.
school was as usual. today had our annual photo-taking session. hope that the photos will turn out alright. hahas. took photos with the prefectorial board also. its was alright lah. but damn freaking hot as i'm wearing formal. i dont know why i'm feel so dead now. tomorrow got geography test. arghhhhhhhhhh~ dead lah. stupid tty. i hate him can. arhhhhhhhh~ still need stay until 5plus tomorrow. he sucks can.
how i wish someone could accompany me home everyday.
Walk away, Loved. 9:34:00 PM `
nlevel chinese oral.
well, i screwed up my oral. its just sucks. i dont know what i'm doing. i just pause like so long when i'm reading the passage. DEAD- sighs~ and the conversation, i dont even what shit i'm talking about lah. screams! fcuk god, what i'm doing?! its nlevel can! ): today had a bank recon test together with the class. and fcuking hell, i cant balance. i almost cry out. i dont know why. whenever i dont seems to get something right, i will just break-down and cry. i'm no longer that strong. the meizhen who used to hold back tears. i just feel like crying every now and then. what happen to the once strong meizhen?
just what happening to me?
save me, wont you?
tell me you still love me.
Walk away, Loved. 7:58:00 PM `
that all we gonna be?
sighs~ i'm still coughing, how am i going to take oral tomorrow? can someone please save me? i need a magic pill to cure me now! argh~ i need some motivation, yes i do. i'm dying. not just mentally but also physically. sighs~ i need a rest. anyway, today's POA lesson is changed from 6pm-8pm. and now i feel so dead. too many things to learn. gonna burst any moment.
i miss you boy.
Walk away, Loved. 9:49:00 PM `
i'm still coughing!
cries~ my cough arent getting any better. its killing me, really. i'm feeling terrible. i hate being sick. it just spoilt my mood lah. argh~ school was as usual. and as usual, i'm so tired. i miss him can. sigh~ today asked her about that matter, she denied abit. i also dont want to make our life difficult lah. then i also dont wish to talk about it lerh. so i say, i dont want a next time again. or else, our friendship will be over. oh well, i'm having mood swing again. i dont know why. mayb in the absence of him bah. what happening? screams! mayb i'm missing him way too much. i'm tired. going to lie on bed soon. XD tomorrow theres POA lesson, 5pm-7pm. ): i hate school nowadays. its way too dragging.
i really missed you.
will you miss me?
Walk away, Loved. 8:46:00 PM `
huimin's birthday celebration.
yesterday reach home around 12plus1am. was too tired to on the computer. hahas. can say that i'm lazy lah. yesterday went out around 4plus, went hougang mall to meet up with peixuan mummy, tou, huimin mummy and levi. mayb is i too long never go hougang mall lerh, there changed quite alot. now got basemant liao. hahas. do go and check it out, its nice! well, we ate our dinner at peixuan's dad derh coffeeshop there. then went hougang mall walkwalk. walk half-way, got the temptation to eat ice-cream. hahas. so we sat down and eat. but its damn freaking expensive lah. after that, around 8plus, we went to buy a birthday cake. the cake look so like the cake he gave me last year on my birthday. (: LOLS. and after that, we went to take bus132.
we meet queenie on bus. then we headed to bishan park. meet up with allan[kuku partner] and engkeat laopa there. laopa cut his hair. look so funny lah. but soon he's gonna be botak! XD hahahas. i'm bad, i know. we eat some finger food and yes, we cut cake. hahas. huimin mummy so shy leis. XD and we took a number of photos also. (:
i miss lianiee!
Walk away, Loved. 12:25:00 PM `
our friendship ended here?
well, didnt blog yesterday night. was tired. and erin called me. so didnt have the time to blog.
can anyone tell me what are friends for? badmouthing and badstabbing you? thats friends? why? i really dont get why. why issit always the people i trusted most backstabbed me? what will they get if they do that? if you hate me for whatsoever reason, tell me right at my face and not behind my back. you are my friend, and you should know me well. i hate backstabbers. and you are the one who said, if we are unhappy with other, we should tell them personally. and what the hell are you doing now? breaking your own stupid rule and telling people i'm a flirt? and please, i'm single. can i have the right to have guys friends? you are attached, but arent you talking to guys too? think before you say people lah. talking to guys means flirt arh? go check the dictionary and see what it means okae! flirt is toying people's feeling, did i do that? i didnt. i only love and like one person. for goodness sake, you are my friend and you dont understand me? fcuk off lah hor.
Walk away, Loved. 12:49:00 PM `
i didnt expected it.
oh well, my life. ups and downs. problem after problem, nothing seems to end. sighs~ this time, i'm troubled not because of him. and this got nothing to do with my love life. its all just about friendship. yeah, not everyone can be trusted. mayb all of us have been kept in the dark for too long and we didnt realised it. and seriously i dont really expect it until today. hais. mayb i shall elborate more on tomorrow's entry. i got english compo to finish up. LOLS.
kill me,
meizhen is dead.
Walk away, Loved. 9:07:00 PM `
i dont know how.
sighs~ i so wanted to cry. my throat very pain! i keep coughing and coughing non-stop. i'm feeling so dead. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ somebody save me. my running nose is getting worse. sobs~ oh well, for my life. i should be feeling better, shouldnt i? but why am i just feeling abit of sadness. i dont know why. but thats what i feel in my heart. no one can be perfect. i felt so lost. i need some light in life please.
just tell me why?
Walk away, Loved. 9:01:00 PM `
i want herbal tea! ):
i hate sore throat. really. i'm dying. its killing me. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ lesson was so dragging. because of my illness, i'm so wanted to sleep. after school, stay in class and do the chinese idioms thingy. wait for nanny they all derh amaths lesson end, and i went home. took a nap. and i havent eaten. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ i'm hungry. LOLS.
sick.
i wish you were here.
Walk away, Loved. 9:07:00 PM `
sighs, cure me please.
oh well, my mood was extremely best today. its been a long time since i felt so relax. but my coughing and my sore throat are really killing me. cough and cough and cough. arghhhhhhh~ school was as usual. after school, got maths mock exam. well, its alright. pray that i will score well bah. after mock exam, went for POA lesson. until around 6pm, went look for karmen and went home around 7pm. and i guess i gonna rest early.
just for you. (:
Walk away, Loved. 8:08:00 PM `
painful throat!
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ my throat is damn freaking pain. can anyone save me?! can someone cure it for me?! ): i so wanted to ask my parents to bring me to the doctor. cause i'm feeling so terrible. headache, fever come and go. its killing me. screams! i just want my throat to be that alright. its terrible. argh~ but i know they will think that its just wasting of money. they dont know how i feel. i simply hate being sick. rar~
today is just another boring day. i'm always slacking my sunday away. i should be hitting on my books already. but what the fcuk am i doing? hais. prelim2 is like only 2weeks away? and i'm still not studying? lets pray that i will do well this time. sighs~ woke up around 10plus today. because of my niece again~ sighs. she on the tv and well, i got disturbed and i wake up. every sunday also like that. and can you imagine i'm sick! and i cant get a good rest. argh~ so pissed off. ate my breakfast, use computer, around 3plus went to take a nap till 5plus. wake up, watch tv. then around 6plus had my dinner. and now i'm using computer. so bored. i havent done my english summaries! i so gonna be dead.
long long ago,
there live a gurl,
named lummeizhen.
and she loves him. (:
Walk away, Loved. 9:04:00 PM `
national band competition.
well, i'm abit better now. but my throat is damn painful. anyone got any ways to cure sore throat? its really killing me. i cant sing properly! LOLS. my voice is like my everything can. its great knowing that he's there. as for my friendship, i just wish everything will be alright. i have moodswing, i have my own problem, i have my own attitude, i cant be possibly smiling and having fun with you all all the time. i'm serious at time, i'm odd at time. i'm sorry, i just cant be perfect.
today wake up around 810am. bath and left house around 9am. meet up with jasline at gate there. all the band members are preparing for their competiton. they are nervous. can tell. we can only try to relax them. LOLS. he isnt there. i'm so looking forward in see-ing him. but well~ around 10plus, we headed to victoria concert hall. 1215pm, the time they perform. well, not bad. theres nice parts, theres not so nice parts. and 1pm, the result is released. they got 77.36%, a high silver. yah, its kinda disappointing. but at least they tried their best.
reached home around 4pm, went to take a nap. woke up around 7plus. (: tired~ i hate to fall sick lah.
even if its just 1minute,
i'm willing to be there.
Walk away, Loved. 9:45:00 PM `
the first time.
today is the first day i feel that i'm so weak. today wake up around 540am. and i was feeling terrible. my head was damn heavy. i thought i would be alright. so i went to the toilet as i wanted to bath. and suddenly, the next moment, i cant see anything. its totally black. i was so scare. and i'm inside the toilet! i open and close my eyes a few times but i still cant see. i stay in the toilet for around 2mins. and finally i'm to see somethings. i went out of the toilet and tell my mum that i'm having a terrible headache. she ask me to eat a piece of bread, take a panadol and go back to rest. i wake up around 8am. i'm feeling quite better. so i decided to go to school rather than wasting money to see doctor yah? i reached school around 930am. this is the first time i went to school so late. hahas.
and lesson was as usual. but i still slight headache. but its alright, still can take it. after school got humanities extra lesson. all the way until 5plus. went heartland with erin. then went home. i'm blogging early today because i'm going to sleep early today. hahas. tomorrow is the NBC, jiayou band members! you guys can do it yeah? (:
sighs~ everything is like drifting apart.
i dont wish to lose anyone of you.
you gurls means too much to me.
but~ hais.
Walk away, Loved. 7:24:00 PM `
such a beautiful place.
school was as usual! screams!!! i'm very tired.
can i like skip school for one day?
extra lesson is killing me.
arhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
can they just spared a thought for us?
we are humans, and not robots. argh~
我只想不被打扰，假装多好，
我只要只想要再拥有一秒。
去相信你的拥抱一直会让我依靠。
Walk away, Loved. 9:16:00 PM `
oh well, its been 10months.
oh well, can say i'm damn suay early in the morning lah. i woke up late. i was supposed to wake up at 530am. but i woke up at 625am! my first reaction was OH SHIT! I DONT WANT TO BE LATE FOR SCHOOL! LOLS. i took around 15mins to bath, tie hair and around 640am, i left my house. LOLS. and guess what, i waited for the lift and i didnt realised that the lift is spoilt! -.- LOLS. and i was like telling myself, 'dian ti hao huai bu huai, zai zhe ke shi hou huai.' LOLS. and its like raining~ argh~ but luckily, i reached school on time! (:
okae, my morning is like so messy. XD lesson was boring. i just feel like sleeping. LOLS. and yes,
seriously,
do you still love me?
Walk away, Loved. 9:46:00 PM `
希望越高，失望越大。
well, school is like so damn dragging. 4E is like so dead today. LOLS. everyday study until 5pm really will die. argh~ doing POA w/s now. hahas. cause today in school while having the self-study section, mdm soo gave out one worksheet to the class. and everyone cant balance! including chengsiong! can you guys imagine that? LOLS. i cracking my brain to try to balance. and i really dont know what mistakes there is! LOLS. well~
Walk away, Loved. 10:11:00 PM `
monday blues~
school was boring and tiring~ extra lesson all the way until 4plus5pm. gross~ everyday will be like that can. wa, can die lah. argh~ after exttra lesson, went heartland with nanny, erin and karmen. hahas. went to buy some finger food to eat. then around 6plus7pm jiu go home lerh. while erin they all go for their tuition.
chrys laopo,
i wish you and hiim all the best okae? <3
Walk away, Loved. 9:40:00 PM `
everything, everything.
today is sunday! hahas. tomorrow is monday! sians~ ohwell, i'm lame. hahas. sians. tomorrow got 2periods of PE! and after school got whatever self-study until 5pm! for goodness sake lah. think we robots arh? LOLS. whatever. today wake up around 11plus. i hate it when my niece is at my house. she will ALWAYS make my mum angry and my mum will shout and so i cant sleep anymore! argh~ wake up, eat fried noodles which my mum bought earlier on. after that, use computer. until around 230pm, went out with my parents. my niece went home. hahas. we went singapore post. as my dad want to pay my hp's bill. its damn expensive lah. $80plus. LOLS. after that we went KFC to eat. then we went walkwalk. bought quite a number of stuffs. hahas.
after that, we go take bus to aljunied there as i need to buy hair clips and rubber bands. hahas. then we went NTUC to buy FRUITS! and well, thats our dinner. hahas. cause before that we eat too many things and we are very full. so we decided to eat fruits for dinner. just done some of the maths' questions on the w/s miss liza gave. hahas. and chatting with joopeng. -.- well, he say he wants to see his name. hahas.
(:
Walk away, Loved. 11:28:00 PM `
i believe, you are not lying.
well, today is saturday. and its damn freaking bored. LOLS. i was at home for the whole day except for dinner time. argh~ so bored. wake up around 10plus11 today. just suddenly wake up and dont seems to get back to sleep again. use computer and slack. my POA h/ws are all undone. and what am i doing? argh~ meizhen arh, study hard, strive hard yeah? hais. after that, around 6plus7pm, my father called so me and my mum went down to meet hiim and we go eat dinner. after that, dad bought durians and we went home. eat durians! hahas. i love~ XD and nothing much lerh.
love's beautiful,
so beautiful.
Walk away, Loved. 10:05:00 PM `
as long as you are happy. (:
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didnt really blog yesterday. wasnt in mood this whole week. sighs~ dont ask me why, i also dont know. today, school was as usual, hweehan wasnt in school again. ): get well soon gurl. but today school end at 12pm. hahas. because of dont know what. LOLS. i also dont care. XD went to joopeng's house after school. to pei erin. around 3plus jiu left lerh. OMG~ i'm getting fatter! i keep eating tibits these few days! argh~ i cant be in bad mood. i will eat potato chips all these. aaarrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~ fattening!!! XD reached home around 4plus. went to take a rest around 6pm and wake up around 8plus. hahas. i dont know why, i'm very tired these few days.
somethings are meant to be said,
and understand. <3
Walk away, Loved. 9:09:00 PM `
yesh, its your choice.
我知道他不爱我，
他的眼神说出他的心。
我看透了他的心，
全部都是他和她电影，
他不爱我。
竟管如此，
他还是赢走了我的心。
Walk away, Loved. 8:33:00 PM `
student leaders investiture 2006.
school was as usual. the investiture was alright. but kinda funny. because jmo is sitting beside me. hahas. okae. so not in the mood to blog. blog tomorrow, and i will update about today also. well, i had my oral too. its was alright, but kinda scary. argh~ i keep stopping while reading. arh~ LOLS. whatever. (:
reply my message,
wont you?
Walk away, Loved. 9:14:00 PM `
only for you.
well, school as usual today. i dont feel i have learn anything at all. sighs~ i want to kill myself seriously. after school, went to look for huiqun to get cock-shoes from her. thanks laogong! (: after that, went computer lab for the whatever oral portal. so bored lor. after that around 4plus, went to heartland there derh hawker to eat. with karmen and erin. after eating, at heartland walkwalk. then around 6pm jiu go home lerh. reach home, sleep from 7pm-8plus. arh~ i'm so tired. tomorrow oral! screamsssssssssss~ LOLS. hahas. actually okae lah. (: have faith in myself.
Walk away, Loved. 9:25:00 PM `
i wish to be remembered by you always.
today wake up around 715am. reached school around 835am. because they said that the rehearsal time has been brought forward. but no difference lah. sighs~ the rehearsal was alright. ended around 1plus. went for lunch with nanny joopeng jasper and jmo. then erin come meet us. after that, we go heartland walkwalk. then after that go joopeng's house to slack. sighs~ around 6plus jiu go home lerh.
all alone.
illusion.
round and round.
Walk away, Loved. 9:29:00 PM `
baby, i missed you.
sighs~ today wake up around 1plus. around 3pm, went out with my parents and my niece. went singapore post to walkwalk and eat. went home around 5plus. then use computer, around 8plus, went downstairs for dinner. i'm damn full now. sighs~ tomorrow still need to go school for rehearsal. bored~ somemore its 9am! argh~ well, i'm so not in the mood to blog now.
baby, 想对你说对不起，用错的方式去爱你。因为我太在意。
Walk away, Loved. 10:09:00 PM `
rina's birthday celebration.
well, didnt blog yesterday. because i'm too tired. LOLS. reach home around 1plus. and i drank abit of corona. so feel like sleeping. and somemore yesterday i wake up so early. LOLS. lets talk about yesterday. woke up around 745am, give erin a morning call. then around 8plus go take bus to school. meet up with hweehan at bus stop. then meet up with erin at school there derh bus stop. and meet karmen in school. LOLS. went up to the hall for the investiture rehearsal. everyone like so damn what when they saw me. i know, i'm not that important too. whatever. the rehearsal ended around 11plus. went for lunch with karmen erin and hweehan. then at heartland walkwalk, slack. around 2plus jiu go home lerh.
reach home, use computer, slack. around 5pm, leave home go heartland meet up with peixuan, queenie, rina, jolin and huimin. then we went cine to have dinner. around 945pm, we went to the one ktv. hahas. sing and sing and sing. damn long never go lerh. we bought a cake for rina in advance before we go in. but she didnt even know. hahas. can see that she's touched. (: around 1245pm, the session ended. so we came out. sit outside for awhile, around 1plus, me jiu left lerh. reached home, i'm damn tired. and yah, we took a number of pics, will upload soon! (: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RINA! HUGGS*
your presence still lingers here.
Walk away, Loved. 2:02:00 PM `
Joanne Lum Mei Zhen. ♥
